My Lord God,
My hope is in you.
I hope with a hope that is beyond hope
And beyond desperation.
For I have sought you with all my heart;
I have traveled to the cities where I heard you dwelt
And searched for you in the alleys where rumor brought me
But I found myself alone among the discarded wrapping
I lost my caravan along the way
Three days I spent wandering the streets
Displaced from my friends, I walked
Peering in windows, resting in doorways
The more earnestly I sought you,
The more swiftly you hid your face
The discord in the streets followed me into my chamber;
The chamber of my heart you passed by
"Here he is," they said, and "There he lies,"
I ran into the street
But the cacophony of voices was babel to me
They carried me away like a tide out to sea
Drifting, the light of your face receded
I became weary, I missed your smell
I thought I knew how to be holy
But I assumed too much
Scoffers shared my bed
Laid up to me, they hoisted their words
"Hope has passed us by," they offered
"It's time we moved on from the Lord"
But how can I forget you,
Walk out on the one who gave me my life?
I am shrouded in a cloud of unknowing
Knowledge has failed me, and doubt has settled in like a fog
My Lord God, in this I know nothing
I know not holiness, and sin has become my neighbor
I erect a fence, he smiles at me
through the planks he beckons for company
I will wait for you to return
I search for you from the window of my home
My poverty has caught up to me
I have nothing with which to pay my debtors
They come to reclaim my house
My household pines for you, my Deliverer
They condemn my patience
I have become foolish, with no recourse left
"Thou has rejected knowledge
And all the people perish"
When you levy the hearts of those who love you
Who will sing your praises in the streets?
I will give you my hand, my Lord
When you return for me and take my hand
To lead me through the fog
To the place I dread to go
I will lay those things I have acquired this year
At your feet, to be taken out to trash
For everything I have is dross
Everything I have is yours to burn
Such talent! I never was too into poetry until this year when my son started writing his own poems. It is very hard to write a good poem!
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